Trust seems a small word and easy word but it is not, it is the most difficult word. It's not at all easy to trust anyone, especially in today's world. I am telling this as it's my personal experience which I am going to share with you. I am doing so because people nowadays don't believe in just words but if they see anyone's personal experience they learn from that and try not to repeat what that person has suffered.
There was a time around 4 years ago when I used to live on my own terms, with no tension nothing just living. I used to trust anyone easily, but I didn't trust love, I used to hate the word love itself, for me at that time love was only for my family and my parents. But then someone came who made me trust in himself, who made me believe that true love does exist. I used to start believing that I am also important to someone and even that there are some faults in me as he said and then I used to do and believe as and what he used to say me to do so. I used to trust him blindly as if he will never break my trust. I even did some mistakes because of this, I did hurt my parents because of this, I had hidden a lot from my parents because I thought that they might allow me to do that.
But it is said that at times we were living in a bubble and when that bubble blasts, we break fully and that is the time when our parents stay with us. The same happened to me. My bubble too blasted and that broke me fully, I don't even remember that night when I didn't cry in the past few months, I lost my smile and used to be lost. I had panic attacks 5-6 times and after that detected depression and that is the time when that person was not with me, it was my family, and some close friends of mine who were and are with me.
My trust had broken to such an extent that now it's not all easy for me to trust even a single person easily, it will take a lot of time for me to now trust anyone. And when I asked him why he did so, he had no answer. Once one of my friends told me to leave him and that he no more loves but I did ignore her and continued but now her words turned out to be true, but the thing is now I am suffering from depression and undergoing counseling sessions.
The reason why I am sharing this is I don't want anyone else, especially girls to suffer the same, I don't want any parent to cry seeing their child suffering from depression or panic attacks. I have seen my parents crying and for me, that was most hurting but at that time situations were not in my hand. But now I have committed to myself to never trust any such person like this and will never bring a situation where my parents will cry because of me instead will focus on my career and make my parents proud.
At times, a question comes to my mind why did this happen to me, is there any fault in me but no there is no fault in me, instead I am lucky that I have so caring family and friends who are no less than family for me.
So, feel lucky that your parents love you and they are with you instead of wasting your time crying about someone else's love.
Also Read : Depression - Everything you need to know.
Author: Anushka Aggarwal.
2 Comentarios
True ......facts and experience
ReplyDeleteParents is the best supporter , role model and always be there for us.
ReplyDeleteParents are only one in the world who loves you unconditionally, and selflessly
Actually perfect meaning of trust is parents .
Gr8 Anushka.